Left In Smoke

I sat there staring at the lines on my paper trying to figure out what to say to her. It had been 3 months since the night she stormed out of what used to be “our” house, never to be seen or heard from again.  I tried calling, texting , emailing, no matter what there was never a response.  It was hard for me to admit that I had fucked up, Nicole had been there for me from day 1, she was the true definition of how a down ass bitch should be.  But I should have been straight up with her from the start.  I wasn’t really ready for a relationship, well I hadn’t been.  From the moment I saw her, I knew I had to have her.  After a few dates I knew she was looking for something serious and I wasn’t but that didn’t stop me from making her my chick.  I figured having a main chick might not be so bad.  As it turned out, it wasn’t bad at all, after 6 months she moved into my crib, and even then it was cool, shorty cooked, cleaned, kept a nigga comfortable.  One weekend she had to leave town, she did hair and there was a big hair show going on in ATL that she wanted to go to, yea she invited me , but I told her to do her thang.  I had my niggas come thru that night, and now that I look back that’s where it all went downhill. 

“Man you tripping, you let yo gal go to the A by herself, for the weekend? Nigga is you crazy?” Donnie yelled as he slammed a domino on the table.

“Yea, why wouldn’t I?” I didn’t see what the big deal was.

“Aight nigga, yo ass up here chilling with ya boys while ya chick is in the A getting her back beat in by some stud.” 

Everybody started laughing , but the shit hit a nerve.  “Nigga I’m Smoke, I got that ass on lock nigga. I aint worried about her going nowhere or fucking no other nigga.”

“Well when she get back and you fall in her pussy don’t say we didn’t warn you.”

These niggas was sick, I aint never had to worry about no bitch leaving me for some other nigga.  At 5’10, 180lbs of pure muscle, dark chocolate complexion, long braids that stopped in the middle of my back, I never had to chase females, hoes practically fell in my lap a dime a dozen.

“Well my nig, we about to burn out, we hitting up Ecstasy tonight.  You know you can roll with us, but you probably want to sit up and cuddle with yaself and watch lifetime”

“Fuck Ya’ll Niggas! I’ll roll.”

Worst mistake I ever made.  As soon as we stepped in the club I saw 5 chicks standing at the bar that I used to fuck with, that wasn’t a good sign at all.  After checking out the scene on the main side of the club we headed to VIP to get drinks and post up.

“Well hello stranger, long time no see.”

I recognize dher voice before I even turned around.  Nikala Harris stood 5’5, 36-24-36, caramel complexion, with an ass that would make you drool. The bitch was bad, and she knew it.

“Hey Nik, How you been?” I muttered out.

“How have I been? Is that all I get after all this time.” 

She wrapped her arms around my neck and begin to kiss me that’s when I seen Cherie my gals best friend out the corner of my eye. Fuck! Strike 1!

As I pushed her back I told her.  “I got a chick now Nik, I’m just here to have a good time.”

“Baby you know I always show you a good time.”  That’s when her hand slipped down my pants.

“Nik!”

“So you telling me that the great Smoke is going to pass up this good pussy just because you got a gal? When has that ever stopped you?”

Five minutes later I was getting in her car, Ten minutes later we were pulling up to her condo, and Two minutes later I had her up against the wall taking that dick.  I fucked her from the wall, to the floor, on the couch, we almost knocked her 71 inch TV over.  Sex with Nik was always fire, just when I thought she couldn’t get any freakier, she always blew my mind with some new shit.  Once she was sleep I called a cab to make my way back to the crib.  I knew I should’ve drove , but hey it was all good.  Thoughts of Nicole were on repeat in my head.  Any other time I cheated in the past I had been Gucci, but on my way home its like a feeling came over me, I felt sick to my stomach, I couldn’t get her off my mind.  Maybe it was time for me to just chill.  Nicole kept me happy.  When I was with her no other woman even existed.  Damn, had I fallen in love with this chick?  I spent the next two days chilling in the house, thinking and smoking.  Nicole couldn’t find out about Friday night.  It was to late to say that I shouldn’t have done it, but I knew it would never happen again.  Nicole’ flight was expected in later this evening.  I made sure the house was spotless, and I had made plans for the two of us that would be a homecoming she would always remember.  I pulled up to the airport just as my phone rang.

“Hello.”

“Hey sexy. How are you?”

“Who is this?” This couldn’t be Nik, how the hell did she get my number.

“Oh so you don’t know my voice now daddy?”

“Nikala?”

“Duh! Who else would it be?”

“Look I told you I had a chick.  Friday night was nice, but im good on you.”  I tried to put it as nice as possible.

“What the fuck you mean it was nice, nigga this is the best pussy you ever had.  You think you can just fuck me when you want and dip the fuck off.  You got me fucked up!”

“Bitch are you serious?  I see you in the club after a year and you let me smash again what the fuck?  You act like a hoe, you get treated like a hoe!”

“Fuck you Smoke!  This wont be the last time you hear from me.”

“But Friday night was your last night getting this dick!”  I hung up as she started screaming and yelling threats.  Nik was not the type that heard “No” a lot , so when she did hear it, she went into Bitch Mode.

When I looked up I saw my baby making her way to the car.  I hurried to get out and help her with her bags.  She kissed me before I could do anything. 

“I missed you love, you didn’t starve without me here did you?”  She asked as she started to laugh.

“No I didn’t , I did just fine without your cooking skills ma’am.”  I said as I put her bags in the truck.

Her phone started ringing as we pulled off.

“I bet that this is Cherie again, she’s been blowing up my phone all weekend. But I was to busy to return her call.”

I reached over and grabbed her phone and sent it to voicemail.  “Babe you just got back, can we at least spend this night uninterrupted?”

She looked over at me and smiled.  Damn she was gorgeous when she smiled.  “Yes baby, that’s fine.”  She said as she reached over and turned her phone off and dropped it in her purse.

I took her out to eat at one of the best seafood restaurants in the city.  Followed up by some drinks and rounds of darts at her favorite bar.  Then we ended up at the presidential suite I had reserved for us, with a Jacuzzi in the bedroom.  I made love to her all night, I had to pat myself on the back , the Jacuzzi was the best idea.  I sat her on the edge with her legs dangling in the water and sucked her pussy until she squirted in my mouth, then I let her drop down in the water right on top of my dick.  She screamed so loud I was sure we would get kicked out of the hotel.  But at that point as long as we both got off I wouldn’t have even gave a fuck.  I woke her up so we could leave the hotel, I had to be at work at nine and she was off , so I had her drop me off at work and I told her I would get a ride from one of my coworkers.

Love will make you do crazy things, but jealousy will make you become deranged.  My phone started ringing around two, it was one of my boys so I didn’t answer, I mean I was at work.  But after the twentieth  missed called I decided to go into the break room and answer the phone.

“Smoke you gotta get to the crib it’s a fire in front of your shit!” Donnie yelled

“Donnie what you mean a fire in front of my house, is my house on fire?”  I was already putting my jacket on and clocking out.

“Dawg I’m saying just get to ya crib asap!”

When I pulled up the house the fire department was putting the fire out on my front lawn.  They questioned me about what happened but I told them I was at work and I had gotten a call about the fire.  I walked up to the ashes and bent down to realize the ashes were from pictures, cards and stuffed animals.  I ran in the house and heard loud fucking coming from the bedroom, I ran into the bedroom to see my worst nightmare.  The sound of fucking was coming from the Tv, but it wasn’t just any porno, it was Nik and I from Friday night.  The little bitch had recorded the whole damn session.  I looked on top of the dvd to see an envelope addressed to “Smokes Blind Girlfriend”.  It was also pictures in the envelope of where she had kissed me at the club, and of us walking out together. 

There wasn’t  a single trace of Nicole left in my house, not a toothbrush, a scarf, not a dirty sock, absolutely nothing.  I called her phone, the number was changed.  I emailed her, and my messages were bounced back to me.

So here I sit staring at these lines trying to figure out what to write to her, my last and only hope is that maybe she’ll get the letter when she stops by her moms house to get her mail.

I had a woman who was down for me, she had my back, she took care of me when a nigga didn’t have nobody else, and I let a piece of ass tear apart everything I had.  I managed to salvage a picture of us together from the fire, and unless she ever responds that’s all ill ever have left besides memories.  I think she was trying to be funny the way she left me, but the great Smoke was always known for getting any bitch I desired.  But Nicole made sure she left my life in smoke, the baddest magician I ever met.